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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 11:22

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She found it foreign!.

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So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Atheists who said that reading the Bible made them an atheist, how? Literally there are millions of people who read the Bible daily and still believe in God. So why say that? I mean unless you want to sound smart & edgy

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Why do women need to wear bras, in spite of the fact that the breasts are an integral part of the body?

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Why does my best friend call me ugly and act like she’s joking, but today she looked at me and said “I wouldn’t lie to you”? What should I say back to her?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

How can we become the best humans? How can we trust each other?

She loved him until the end.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I never cut or harmed myself..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Why is it after eating almonds when I’m occupied, I don’t feel mild itch, but as soon as I have nothing to do, I feel mildly itchy?

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

My family never makes their pension either.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Why do some people refuse to explain their actions or behavior when asked? Why do they claim to not know the reason instead of providing an explanation?

I could never make a relationship work though!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He was dying to do it , i knew.

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

I think the readers, may guess!

Im still living with it.

How old is planet Earth? Is it 4.5 billion years old or 6,000 years old?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

So whats the point in blame.

He knew the spot.

What is life without a job?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I don,t even have a pension.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

What did i know ?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

When she asked me how she looked .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I said to her

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I have no regrets .

Was to survive, this bastard.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

All the time i was locked up.

Ive learnt so much.

She was in good health!

Comes on , in middle age.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I was seconnd youngest,

I was scared of men, in general

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

It was going to be , some day.

Who then, do I blame.?

She wouldn,t have been !

I waited trembling.

I write beautiful poetry .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We all went to grammer schools

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

This is soul school!.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

So, i spoilt her more .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

We were not on the streets..

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But, we were locked up after school.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I will be 64.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I couldn’t, believe it.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

(And it was in our own minds.)

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

And i lived it daily.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Would this be the day?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I was very sick at this time too.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

My life is so biszare .

She married twice! .

Especially a lifetime of it.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I was 9 years of age.

One cannot live in the past .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But it wasn’t much.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He resisted the act ,that day.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Put me off passion for life!!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .